project-ing
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
schoooooool is out!!!!!!!!!!!at least for another 2 days it's gonna behahah (:i had a lab test todatwaaai hope i get full markscause i know how to do la! ):i studied ):hahawas late for maths today, AGAINi'm always late for maths labe it on purpose or noti feel so shagggggggggggggg today la...i slept at twelve last nighti wasn't tiredbut i had to sleepcause of the test i had to takedarni snoozed from 6.30 to like 7.45haha! so pro rightim so pro mannnahahahin the study corner nowsupposed to b doing projbutlike no one do lehso i bloghohohoso evil lalater fail IDEAs modulehaha
i went to have lunch with nam and co. just nowwah then they ask me to bring them to sp's er mei shanthen go liaonot even 5 minsask me go bball courthahadamn lame lai haven't walked so much for a long long timewell, except the days when i went shoppingit doesn't count (: hahaahhwhateverim so tiredi could fall aslp while playing basketballhaha(:
And the stars
Fell out of the sky
And my tears
Rolled into the ocean
Now i'm looking
For a reason why
You even set my world
Into motion
'Cause if you're not
Really here
Then the stars
Don't even matter
Now i'm filled
To the top with fear
But it's all
Just a bunch of matter
'Cause if you're not
Really here
Then i don't want
To be either
I wanna be next to you
Black and gold
Black and gold
Black and gold
Labels: shaggg
hello
Monday, May 26, 2008
ohmygosh ohmygoshi broke my record for like consecutively updating for 5 dayshahaso cool righthahaeh zhangqi i reply ur qns herecos i in class boliao nth better to dokekekekeke(:damn sianso early and im blogginghahadamn boredhaha(:being in class sucks la-.-
i went to sentosaaaaaaa(: with xueli, kiahui and cheefujanice didn't go ): sadand i got a uneven tan wtfcuk -.-ah but besides htat it was a good day (:((((((:must go another day but with janice !!hehehehehfor the photos go to xueli's blog (:www.tiggerbasketballnoob.blogspot.com i super duperrrrrrrrrrrr lazy to upload photossorry laaaahhahathen i went to the singapore expo to workwtfcukdamn sian lalike been working there for 3 or 4 years alrvery tired ):hahah okoki don't think i got anything else to blog about alr hehehhebyebye(:oh and i need another round of serouos tanningtanning, anyone?im trying my best to get over you, really
im trying
Labels: sentosaaaa (:
mugging at night, -.-
Friday, May 23, 2008
its 2.24am and im awakeokguess what am i doing, playing computer games?no!watching tv? of course not!what am i doing then?..i just bloody mugged finished.okaynot exactly finishedi still have my Digital Electrionics chapter 3 and 4, Structured Programming chapter 5, lab 5 and some qns on lab 4(concerning chapt 5)and my maths.godamithard stuff i've to do at poly. -.-and i actually have to complete my NI multism but i can't access it i wonder why.i feel so shaggg.and i'm going to sleep once i'm done with this entryi think everyone is in their nice comfy bedsfaraway in dreamlanddreaming of their fanatsies, hopesand i only have 3 hrs to regain the energy that i lost todayi mean yesterday,.. today.. urgh whatevertamade. -.-trng just now was a bummer 'cause i had to rush home to revise on my maths 'cause i have a maths quiz later onand i left my handphone with xlthat is precisely why i need to wake up at 6am and drag myself to the mrt station before 7.15amdamnitbloody technologymakes me hard to live without itit's funny eh?like even thoughwe know the fact thatthe radiation from the handheld device causes us harmwe still use it everydaygoddamnit.the fact that its going to be 3am is creeping the shit out of me.i need my handphone):my handphone gives me comfort la. i'm seriousthe fact that i know that i can call anyone when anything happenscomforts me, GREATLY.boredom.should i go to sleep? i should, shouldn't i? hmmohmyi was blog-hopping awhile agoand i landed on a friend's blogand we were such good friends i used to thinknow it seems that this person has changed andnot the person i used to know anymorei'm kinda sad, really,(that's why i'm lamenting, right?)'cause, after what i've been through,all the cold wars,all the confronts.makes my heartbreakthe change in her is blatanti thought we made a really good team in the pastbut now,if i were to play with her agn,we might not make it workmaybe it was another side of her i never noticedand now she might not even see me as a friendso, im kinda sad, really. hmm if you were here to hold me through the night
i could just die in your arms
no regrets, no tears, just a smile
and i miss you so
tell me, is it me you're dreaming of now.
is it our past that's making you do that
but it can't be
'cause
we didn't really have much of a past
i could spend my entire life missing you
but i know i've got to move on
but
that's not going to happen soon i guess.
//there he goes, so perfectly, the kind of flawless i wish i could be
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure
and everyday i spend a little of my time
to find songs that puts my feelings into lyrics
about you.
it's all about you
DE
Thursday, May 22, 2008
ohmy ohmyit's DE nowDigital Electronicslike hard shit. ):sadness im like struggling la.and the teacher is talking in some alien language canomgomgomgi have PEEE quizDARN'so many things comming upomgomgomgand my MSTsmy MSTsMY MSTs.URGH. sad life la:S
what DeMorgan theroemi mcmuffin with sausage lehi'm dying in class i'm dying in class
i don't want go go for trngbut i have todilemmaand im thinking of qutting basketballyes my friends were rightdoing the same thing for 4 years has lessened the spark and passion for bball in mei'm sorry basketball
i haven't seen JC for 3 weeksand im missing him
i'm typing about random things
ohohTHERE IS NO MATHS LECTURE TOMORROWEVERYONE SAY YAYYEAH BABYlikefinally i have a break can((:so happy to take a break from mathstorturous mathsevil mathssatanic mathshahhahaahim over-reacting la.life's so hard in spso stressful canstress stress stress:S sadnessssssanyone date me for some stress-relieving sport or date or whatever:S
just a good friend
how many times i have heard that
just a good friend
so easy to say
but hard to keep emotions from flowing
the more i try to let go
the tighter my grip gets
its hard to let go
and they say time heals all wounds
but why doesn't time heal mine.
极光掠夺天边
北风掠过想你的容颜
我把爱烧成了落叶
却换不回熟悉的那张脸
爱你穿越时间
两行来自秋末的眼泪
让爱渗透了地面
我要的只是你在我身边
stressinggg~
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
like damn man!!! im so stressed out!like wthelllshitfcuki'm sick of school and yes i'm officially saying thisI'M MISSING JURONGVILLE LIKE !#$%^&%$#
i miss the times that i was scolded by dearest mrs chan
i miss the times i played netball
i miss the times when i went bersek with the visualiser in class with xuanhui and eqah
i miss the times when i skipped geog and spent the periods in the girls bathroom
i miss the times when it was recess and me, wilyn, esther and xuanhui had our routinely jobs to do
i miss the times when i hated mr lee for being way too naggy and long-winded in geog
i miss the times when we were slacking at the student corner
i miss the times when we enjoyed the air-con in the library
i miss the times when we secretly planned each other's birthday
i miss the times when even we were being scolded, we still giggled away
i miss the times when i cursed my teachers
i miss the times when i was having fun in the basketball court with my bball girls
i miss the times when we got caught for skipping assembly and was gambling
i miss the times when i cried, when i laughed
i miss the times when the class rejoiced when a relief teacher walked in
i miss my classmates
i miss my classroom
i miss the food at uncle jeffery's
i miss the laughs
i miss the jokes
bottomline:
i miss jurongville.
i miss jurongville )): im a sad sad kidmaybe i'm just not attached to sp yet sighand whoever said poly life was a breeze should slap themselves and jump off a bldgdamn you fcukspoly life sucks mandamn stress la, -.-to all ex-jvsiansjvs is moving to god-knows-whereso. please visit jvs before it undergoes prime k?well, before its too late anyway.and my MST are uo in a mthlikewthellshitfcukim stressingim stressingim stressingim stressingim stressingim stressingall my mods are damn hard laCRY~just a fcuking structured programming is already sucking the life out of mebasket -.-那里有彩虹告诉我
能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静
所有的云都抛到我这里
有没有口罩一个给我
只会说了太多就真正不了
也许时间是一种接药
也许现在我正在服下的毒药
why is it that i have to miss you so
when you don't
this isn't fair
but what i'm asking for isn't fairness
what i'm asking for is
realisation
relief
and
a new life
and only you can give me that
6mths and 1 day
release me from this misery
I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
And I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
But you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then I can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?
So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be
yanru jie's birthday
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
to my loveliest prettiest bestest girl : TAN YANRU
HAPPY SEVENTEEN BIRTHDAY WOMAN!
kekekkeeh happy anotyou're seventeenyou can like learn to drive soonyeahi'm jealousi still have like a year and a half.what the F*CKsad man):cryyyy. ohho.D:ah whatever im younger and prettierhehehe JUST JOKINGyanru jie is the prettiest today.teehee
backtracking,,,
and yesterday..was the 19th of maya day to celebrate yanru's seventeenth,i really wanna thank everyone that bothered to turn up(except those that really couldn't make it)you guys made it a wonderful day(:
people likeshellywilynalvinerwinminghuishensiongyilongdeenanipnelhuiqiyejieestherzhangqianthony
thanks(:kekekeke
i hope i didn't miss out anyonehaha
ohohand i got my new D60and i love my new D60kekekekeits the new love of my lifeyes it is i love it<333hehehehe(:and i took many many things with it yesterdaybuti'm lazy to uploadgo and see yanru's blogand you will find it.i guessheheits v niceeeeee (:heeeheeeeethen me, yanru, wilyn, shelly and alvin went to sing karaokehahahaso funn(:karaoke is good i tell youG O O D D (:AND HEALTHY :D :D :D :D :D :D :Dthen we went to my aunt's show to eat dinnerbout ten?then we cabbed home
ohthen me and wilyn drank alcoholthen we were both super highand like talking gibberishhahahahaahdamn funnyand i did somehting fcukin' lame last night lahomgstress.ahhaha
that's allyes my life is that boring. heheheheh :D
i thought i could handle myself well when i was going to see you
but the truth remains
and i can't.
i tried my best to hide my emotions
but i've failed
and apparently
you don't know it
i wonder if you're just pretending
and i don't know if it hurts you or me more
and at this point
i don't think
i would matter to you anymore
and i'm sorry if liking you was ever a mistake
we didn't say hi yesterday
i guess a simple hello would have made my day
you avoided me
and everytime you do that it forms another scar
i promised myself i wouldn't cry no more
and i won't
tell me if you still do?
or have you ever,
liked me.
it's silly to ask this question now
but
i'm such a fool
Labels: happy birthday yanru (:
studying
Sunday, May 18, 2008
ohmy ohmyMSTs are a month awayand im not studying for itohmygoshim so stresseddyingdying dying
stressed == dyingcout << " andrea's dead ";
wah fcukim so stressed i introduced c++ programming into my post.it wouldn't work anyway.it's all wrongi hate sturctured programming.i hate digital electronics i hate principles of electrical & electronics engineeringbut i like IDEAS i like Teamwork and Communication Skillscos both are non-examinal modules
im with yixuan nowim supposed to be studyingbut im bloggingi need a life. sad.):cryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
someone teach me structured programming pleasepretty please!!
life has been really different without you around
missing you has become my habit,
long ago.
relationships are fragile
break-ups are inevitable.
but why it'd happen to us
so hurriedly.
its you, or is it me,
i thought i've moved on
but reality has pulled me back to square one
fuck this insanity
you've moved on
so why can't i
tell me
it is because of her
tell me the truth
and maybe
i can kick this putrid habit
for good
don't ask questions
just tell me
tell me the truth
i don't believe the lies you told me
the peccant pack of lies
such lies hurt a long way
and i can't express the love-hate feeling i have for you
but i can't say i hate you
'cause i don't really
truth be told,
i still have feelings for you
5 months and 30 days.
this is how long
i have been longing for an answer
i often say i should have slapped you
that night on 4th of december
but
even if i had the chance to do that
i'd rather ask for the truth and walk away
then to hurt u physically
and hurt myself
mentally,
physicallly,
and
emotionally.
i need an answer
i don't want to lie to myself
and help you cover up the scars
that you left in me
i can fegin happiness infront of people i know
but i can't, infront of myself
so tell me,
why?
整个画面是你
想你想的睡不着
Labels: MSTs
my tears run down like razorblades
Saturday, May 17, 2008
My tears run down like razorblades
And no, I'm not the one to blame
It's you, or is it me?
And all the words we never say
Come out and now we're all ashamed
And there's no sense in playing games
When you've done all you can do
But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
But it's over
I lose myself in all these fights
I lose my sense of wrong and right
I cry, I cry
It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
I just wanna crawl into my bed
And throw away the life I led
But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die
But it's over, it's over, why is it over?
We had the chance to make it
Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
I wish that I could take it back
I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever
I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
Don't say this won't last forever
You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
Don't tell me that we will never be together
We could be, over and over
We could be, forever
It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
Unless you let it take you
It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
Unless you let it break you
It's not over
nothing much has happened lately.but i have been stressing much. yanru, cheefu, alfred. and guowei's bday is comming upim burning a hole in my bank book ):i'm not complaining, reallyit's my mumshe's the one. ohmygosh,i forgot about the quiz that i have to do,and it was due on 16th may 7PM.godi hope i don't fail any modules,it's the fifth weekand i'm getting lazyit not goodnot at alli'm starting to disappear,skipping classes,which is definitely not a good thingand not the best choice for my futurebut im a kidwho can i blame?that's it
i'm hate it when my tagboard is so lifelessi should just go ahead and delete it,
ohmy,
its 1.11am
and im wide awake,
my mind's in a whirl
every breath i take makes me want to say goodbye
every step i take makes me want to take a few steps back
can't tell if my heart's confused
or
i'm just addlepated.
it has always been about mt needs
i need someone to talk to
you can be a total stranger
i don;t mind, really
just need an outlet
a place
or anything,
to let out stuff
stuff that has been killing me slowly inside
.
Labels: it's not over
thoughts
Saturday, May 10, 2008
andreasin.
doesn't really feel anything right now
but she
needs to be loved
wants to be loved
needs
someone to hold
someone to run to
someone to love
but,
love,
for her seems distant
knows she don't like him no more
but can't help looking,
at him;
knows her heart has returned
but with memories still attached.
tells herself she will find someone better
but is struggling to believe in it
is confused right now
cause
everything around her is moving too fast
too fast for her to hold on
andreasin. really needs an inspiration now,
andreasin. is living in denial
Labels: time aft time
random
Thursday, May 8, 2008
*editedthis is a random post. hoho
im having IDEAS nowlike wtf manWHAT THE F**Kbut hey i dont mean that IDEAS suck,its just the THINGS we do in IDEAS suckbut it ain't all that badhaha
the teacher is great though.haha
bored manhaha
4th of may..i went out with jianchyuanhahai'll miss him.................. i wont be seeing him for like 3 weeks!i'm a sad sad personhoho
he's leaving for many places soonhhaha
oh but we went for steamboat at bugisthe tian tian steamboathahaeveryday steamboat... HAHAnoob siahahathe fish is nice uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhaha
then aft eatingwe went to ride on the singapore flyerso cool mannnhahawe took photos but i cant upload it now cause i dont have my cable nowhahadumb
WE LET THE FISHES EAT OUR DEAD SKINcool siolllu know the fishieseat the dead skin..hohocool manhahait was like ticklishhand jc was like squirmminghahahahdamn funny
oh then it was singapore flyer timeheheit was exciting at firstbeing a first timer and allbutlater..you know the rest. hhahathen we wnt to popeyes.and then we went home hahanice day huhtime always passes super fastwhen im having fun with my bestsss :D
FUCKING ZBRUSH SHOULD BE DESTROYEDAND INCINERATED AND DELETED AND DESTROYEDZBRUSH IS EVIL LIKE HELLITS THE DEVIL ON EARTHITS FUCKING ZBRUSHTHE SOFTWARE FROM HELL
i miss everyone.. ): Labels: this is a random post